Tonight I watched a birth vlog of a Youtuber that I follow. And I’m not gonna lie. I had a twinge of jealousy.
Jealousy over the fact that I’ll never know what it is like to stare into the eyes of someone who has Chad’s and my DNA.
Jealous that Chad and I won’t have little “us’s” running around.
And then I remembered that, unlike many infertile couples for whom adoption isn’t an option, we have been given a gift.
A few months ago God spoke to us and actually told us why He chose us to remain childless.
We were given an answer.
And even to this day I cherish that. But I am not sure how to feel about it because I know SO many couples and women who long to become parents to humans, and for whatever reason it never happens.
And they never discover the why.
And so I was torn about whether or not I should even write this. Because the last thing I want to do is rub salt on other’s wounds that we have an answer and they don’t.
But in the spirit of encouraging others that there is light after the darkness of childlessness, I am sharing our story of getting an answer.
Our answer was two-fold.
Firstly, the Lord laid it upon our hearts to release our time, finances, and other resources to bless those around us who need help. To ease their burdens.
And finally He asked me to make a list of parents, specifically those who are single. Every day I am to go over each name and pray for them. Recognizing that spiritual support is an integral part of parenting and the more prayer a parent can get the better.
So that is the story of our answer. And I hope our story gave you hope and encouragement.